Letting go is hard but sometimes holding on is even harder...

Once again you come in to my life. You have no good expanation for coming back, but every time I let you come back to me. I feel like shit, I wonder why you do this to me. Why not just let me go? Why are you playing games with me? You should not play the game if you are not prepared to see it to the end.
All I'm asking for us for you to let me go, let me move on, fucos on what's really happening in my life, I want to stay fucos on what really counts but you drag me closer and closer to you every day, and every night you push me away again. I don't know what you want from me, I don't know what I want from you. But you are in my heart so I guess I can stay pretending like I don't care about you but I still do, and I will always do. You are amazing, wonderful. But maybe you are not the one for me, maybe I need someone that have the same goals as me and want the Same things in life. Please let me go if you don't want me, please give me a chance to forget you, give me a chance to start over with someone that really wants me. A bit of me will always be with you, that pice of me that you took, I will never get I back, so please take are of it. Because I don't have many pices left....